For the past two years, I've been with a lot of awesome people. Really, a single person couldnt expect and ask nothing more from them.

Well, we were really unique individuals from the very start, but we have one goal in mind and I think that is what keeps us together. Oh, I forgot, it was the idea that we are a family that keeps us bonded and one with what we wanted to do.

After two years, some of us took the the same road again, while some of us already pursued different things for their life. But I will not forget them. Well, I won't allow myself too, and frankly I think they would be thinking of the very same thing. Haha

I probably should invite them for lunch one of these days, while I'm not yet swallowed up by a lot of things.

Gone are the Days

Well, gone are the days that I looked like a scrawny kid from the province with a twisted mind, anti-social inclinations and shallow desires (well some shallow desires still stay with me).

College gave me a new and clean slate. Like if I create a venn diagram comparing me from high school and me right now in college, there's little similarities in the middle and a brighter perspective on the right side of the diagram. Haha

But still, I'm a frustrated arts-man. Frustrated at writing, drawing and even doodling. I'm stuck with programming as of the moment, but hey, I'm getting the hang of it. Haha. And I still like laughing and placing "haha" in every comment or text to fill up some of the empty spaces.

And yeah, this world of mine in the internet rarely gets updated. That sucks. I did promise again and again that I would updating this one, but uhh I get slurry and I end up writing nothing at all.

Which reminds me, what was I supposed to be talking about. Haha

Well, gone are the days that I try to act like I control everything, I just let myself be soupy sometimes.

Relatively Awesome

Describe me in one word today: HAPPY

But really, I'm happy almost everyday of my life. Screw my mouth if I always have that upside-down smile.

Just last week, well, I was really tired, but I had an awesome weekender. Hooray!

Thanks to someone.

I don't wanna expound just yet, since we havent talked and all. But kudos to a beautiful life ahead :))

FCUK. Im Confused

Ok, now, so creating another blog from your original gmail proved to be just a little bit too troublesome. I'm kidding, I find it too troublesome.

Just the other day, I had this interplanetary slap that allowed me to write another post in my forsaken blog about some random stuff I was thinking about at the moment. And since ages ago I thought that I would be blogging again so I had a quicklink in my menu bar. Then obviously I clicked the icon, and voila, I haven't logged out. It was my blog, entitled "The Hierarchy of the Aces" (which actually is the name of my other blog). To cut the long crap short, I wrote, finished the whole thing and clicked PUBLISH.

Oh Boy, was I in a surprise when I saw that I only had four posts there, and ka-ching, I remembered, wrong blog.

Well I told myself that I would be migrating those entries in this blog. But I realized that I would get the dates all mixed up so I rather not. BUMMER.


Any way, I should just provide the links to compensate for my stupidity. I think that would placate me just a little bit. Or not.

Well hey, I think this is my first blog of the year. And I'm feeling so great that I think I would still add a lot of though to this one. Maybe who knows, I can make 365++ posts even if I didn't post anything during the first two days of the month of the new year.

Cheers to me!

P.S
And oh, I decided I'm gonna use King Curse Mark from now on instead of thunder raikent. Brings out a lot of bad memories, the name that is.

So prepared to be cursed, I mean astounded by King Curse Mark (That was random)

Tanikala Isa: Nangangalumbaba at Nakaupo sa Kawalan

Recently, I've started writing in Tagalog.

I don't know if its my own patriotism kicking in or I'm just assuming that Tagalog has a more comic effect than that of the Hurrahs and Hurrays of the English language.

Matagal na akong naghahanap ng isang konkretong kaisipan na maari kong mailathala, mabigyan ng buhay at mabigyan ng identidad. Mahirap nga lang na isipan na kahit na nais mong gawan ng isang magandang prosa ang ganitong bagay ay may nakaisip na nito, or better yet, someone already made the job of making it into a masterpiece.

Buhay nga naman, its really small that you end up seeing it in all its four corners. (Musni, 2010)

Nais ko sanang isulat ang aking pagkapanalo sa wikang aking kinagisnan, ngunit, nawawalan ako ng gana sa gitna ng pagbibigay pugay dito. Its unfair for me not to give myself credit when I know that I deserve it - I have the bragging rights, but its quite stupid for you to brag about when you know that someone might not even take time to read it.

Its like talking to an empty stretch of parchment - it never replies, nor does it give any intentions of making you feel any more better. (Musni, 2010)

Maybe I'll stop now, and maybe, just maybe, mamaya I have something better to write rather than quote on random stuff that I know everyone already knows.

See yah later.

Parang Tanga

Alam niyo ba yung feeling na dapat, you are supposed to do something really, really important, as in yung tipobng fuck yeah important, pero andito ka pa din sa blog mo, nagsusulat, at patuloy ap rin na iniisip kung anong dapat gawin upang magkaroon ka ng ideas that are fresh from the oven.

For the past few days, kulang ang ideas na pumapasok sa utak ko, para inaamag na ata yung dati kong tinatawag na "writing prowess" ko. Nasaan na kaya yun? Hindi naman siguro nagtatago yun sa sulok ng bulok na mundo na pilit tinatakasan ng tao.

To hell with creative ideas. Gawa na lang tayo ng blog, baka sakali may maisip pa tayo. Teka nga, ginagawa ko na pala, para na talaga akong tanga, nauulol, nababaliw, natutulala at parang baliw na aanga-anga sa walang pakundangan na pag-ilaw ng LCD sa aking harapan.

Nakakadismaya ngayon ang aking isip, nawawalan ng kulay, parang balck and white ng digicam, buti nga hindi sepia, mas malala pa nun ang inabot ng utak at pag-iisip ko. Nakakalungkot man isipin na wala na ngang makubuluhang bagay ang napaparito sa aking isipan, ngunit, meron pa din nung mga random moments kung saan, parang poof! may inspiration ka, Yes! makakapagsulat ka nanaman ng isang makabuluhan na tanikala na maaaring ipagmalaki mo.

Oops.

Ang corny pala.

Parang you just have to sigh. Face reality, at pabayaan na maglakad na lamang ang mga daliri sa keyboard ng computer, in hopes na makakatsamba at makakagawa ng tanikalang matagal ko nang hinahanap.

Parang tanga eh, buti naman hindi mas masahol sa gago.

The World As We Know It

The world as we know it ladies and gentlemen, is indeed

a very UNFAIR setting, where

IDIOTS


MORONS

HOOLIGANS

Cant do anything to survive.

The world is not full of glitz and glamour that politicians and celebrities promise us, but its a life that we got to live.

Its a life that would make us tough.

Its a life where we have to let go of a few things to hold on to better ones

Its a life where love can sometimes be the cause of destruction

And its a life that we can run away from